Thursday, March 29, 2012

Concrete Jungle, Where Dreams are Made of

I don't want to go on and on about New York, but I can't just not say anything about it! It was fantastic, I felt very good there. Its just a place I love. I went on as many auditions as I could when I was there, and I got some callbacks! It was a very inspiring trip, and made me so thankful for a wonderful BFA program. I am glad I have a safe place to learn and grow, to develop into the type of artist that I want to be. The directors and choreographers were so nice, and I was shocked at how many of them took the time to speak to me about my audition.

Seeing Bronwyn and John. I could go on and on for hours. Us three have a special bond, and when I got there it wasn't like "oh fun Jessica is visiting" it was "Oh great, now things are back to normal." I miss them so much already. But it wont be long till we are back together! :)

Haha and it was hilarious because I was actually living in the musical "In the Heights". I got off at the 181st and took the escalator just like in the song. I don't know why, but I was just so tickled with that.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

If I can make it here, I'll make it anywhere

Just a super fast update while I'm getting into bed after a great day in NYC.
I was born to be here.
I have always been a city girl, and New York feels like home.
When you know, you know. And I know!
Today was fantastic. Because I was able to audition for a few things
I got to learn from Broadway choreographers and directors. 
And I was lucky enough to receive personal, one on one, positive feedback!
Two directors today spoke to me about how much they appreciated and liked my auditions,
They both said I did a really great job. 
We talked about my training, my plans and just about life. 
It was so cool to get such a good reaction from Broadway Directors.
I mean I never thought I'd get to have personal talks with these directors in my first two 
New York auditions. Even if nothing comes of it, It was really cool and humbling for me.
And the choreographer for Mama Mia! Wow she is incredible. 
We had a special moment today at the dance call, small, but it was so cool! 
Who knows how many special moments she had that day, but for me,
It was the first one on one choreographer feedback I'd gotten from a Broadway Choreographer. 
I'm just kinda in love with this place.
In love with what I do.
There are so many incredibly talented people here. 
They are kind, and busting with talent and joy.
Basically I'm feeling like a kid in a candy store because I get to learn from these 

XOXO! Have a happy day :) 

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

I have a love, and its all that I have

I'm going to New York in a week :) To audition for the Tour of West Side Story!
West side is my all time favorite musical and it is the perfect show for me.
I was lucky enough to play Maria a few years ago and my life was changed by playing that role,
I would love to be a part of the show again, in any form. Of course my audition is specifically for Maria though.
I'll be in NYC for eight days, and I plan on auditioning for as many things as possible!
Somethings just fall right into place ya know?
I've just felt like this last year has been my year. My year to learn, to grow, to be happy, to audition, perform, sing, dance, act, love. And this feels like the cherry on top! I get to go to New York and sing songs from my favorite musical. Perfect. 
AND a little birdie has said IN THE HEIGHTS will be coming to PTC next season :)
Also perfection. I've become obsessed with this show, it is all I have been listening to lately! 
I love musical theater. To much to put into words.

I'm home, when you're here with me

I cannot express how joyful I have been lately.
I had such a fantastic weekend, I surprised my mom for her birthday and we went to lunch with Gma :) And then we had a fantastic sleep over with junk food, movies and great chats. Something I am so grateful for is how my relationship with her has grown. I'm not sure what changed, but we can talk about pretty much anything and I don't feel judged, or like I need to filter my words and thoughts. And we can have different opinions on something and still respect the others view.

I am blessed with amazing friends, who I adore and who just make me feel so great. They are so kind, funny, talented. I look up to them, I'm sure they have no idea, but when I'm around them I can't help but think "oh I hope I can be like that, I'm going to work to develop that." Its the first time I've had people who don't shit talk behind peoples back, who are just kind and generous.

I've been grateful for my father this week. I had to ask him for help with money (more help than he already gives me). I was crying and saying "I'm so sorry I have to ask for this, I know its not fair for me to ask for money." I explained that 21 credits and TWO musicals was so much harder than I was expecting and how I just got a job because I knew I needed to help with money, but that I was just so run down and overwhelmed. He calmly replied "I'll transfer the money right now, don't cry its going to be okay. In the future, pay your parking tickets on time."

And my heart has such a special place for Ben Roeling! I have learned a lot from him, and our friendship hasn't always been good. I've been forced to step outside my box and see things from a totally different place during our friendship. But I'm thankful for all we've experienced because now we are here! Best mexi-friends. :)

God has blessed my life so greatly.

I feel like my blog has been very "I'm so happy, life is great, blah blah positive positive" And I am aware that can be a little annoying, or can be seen as fake. However, I really just feel good. Maybe I'm just actually aware of the blessings that were always here. Maybe I'm really into the power of positive thinking. No matter how I got here, I am happy I'm here. I cry, I feel sad, I get in bad moods, but at the end of the day I'm always happy with my life.