Where does the love once shared between two people go? Does it vanish? Does it slowly fade away? Is that love shifted to a new person, or a new place? How can such intense feelings of passion, joy, love... just disappear?
Its hard to realize that love isn't enough. That despite all the feelings of joy, happiness, passion, in the end it wasn't satisfying. Also its hard to know that what once was, has been given up on. Thought of as not worth the effort. Which does break my heart because for me love is worth all the effort in the world.
I do believe those who let love slip from their hands will regret it. They always do, I always have looked back and wondered if just a little bit larger effort on my part could have kept the love I felt from slipping away.
I'd like to think that the love created doesn't disappear... that when it seems to vanish from our lives it is simply creating something beautiful elsewhere. I do not think love created can ever stop existing. The love once felt for me or by me that is no longer being held in someone's heart or my own heart has not faded, it has not vanished; Instead it is flourishing in some other place. Creating beautiful things, places, music, love, art, friendships. That brings some joy to my heart. And for now, that'll have to do.
Also how sad, that the memories I once adored and that brought me so much joy and light, are now the memories I'd do anything to forget. Because in my world losing love is the greatest tragedy that there ever was. I couldn't disagree more with the phrase "I'd rather have loved and lost then to have never loved at all." Maybe I disagree because I'm young, maybe I'm not that wise yet. But the thing that breaks my heart the most is love lost. In movies, in life, in books. (Hence why I HATE 500 days of summer, Becoming Jane etc)
I pray that love comes back around to create something beautiful in my life. Also I pray for the wisdom to recognize the beautiful things that have already been created and are in the process of forming .