So I feel like I haven't posted in forever!! In reality its been about four days :)
Things I love about this week:
Singing Opera again
Callbacks that go well
The smell of rain
Making new friends
Finding new music
Reading the bible
This week has been good to me. Or maybe I've been good to this week. It started with an awesome callback for Gypsy, which I would love to do because once I learned more about the show I found that it would be fun for me, because if I am a lead dancer I'd get to dance sssooooo much!! :) or if I'm Louise I'd get to sing and dance a lot haha which is great :)
Also I've started singing Opera again. In high school I won almost every competition I was in, but then in college I lost it for a bit when I got vocal nods, they are small but there. I lost some of my middle notes. Which for me was so sad because Opera has always been the thing that allowed me to use my full voice. I may be a little person but my voice is so big that it often causes problems if I try and belt... I can do it, but it is not easy. Its like I have to only use 75% of my voice, I can never be full voice when I belt but in Opera I get to let go. I can use all of my voice and let it fill every part of my body. So as I've been singing it again this week I've found that not only do I have all those middle notes back but now my whistle tone is better than ever! Who knew?! So I'm pretty excited. I got up to a F above high C. (For anyone who isn't musical... remember the high note in Phantom of the Opera, well that is a D above high C.)
I hope I can find some shows that will allow me to use more of this talent. I've missed it. And for the last few years I've been trying to fit myself into a circle... the Utah Belt, or BYU belt. The problem with that is this: I am a square. I don't need to change myself or my talent to fit into the mold. Yes I get to keep working on developing my voice in all styles, but I get to use the talent God has given me. I'm not ignoring it anymore.
Again I am thankful for my friends. They are so supportive, sending me good wishes and positive vibes. I get a text everyday at least from someone saying "Good luck!" or "You're incredible!" or "I love you!" Basically what I'm saying is God has blessed me with people who want to create joy and positive energy. How lucky am I that God saw fit to put those people around me! Last night I posted a facebook status saying I needed a friend or just some friendly words and the amount of response I got was a testament to how amazing the people in my life are. I got comments, facebook messages, emails, texts. And what I loved was that it wasn't pity. It was me, saying I would appreciate a friendly word, and people more than willing to do that for me. All I had to do was ask. How often in my life have I felt so totally alone when all I needed to do was ask for a friend?
Gods tender mercies are all around me. My heart is full :)
“The Lord's tender mercies are the very personal and individualized blessings, strength, protection, assurances, guidance, loving-kindnesses, consolation, support, and spiritual gifts which we receive from and because of and through the Lord Jesus Christ” - David A. Bednar
"We should not underestimate or overlook the power of the Lord’s tender mercies. The simpleness, the sweetness, and the constancy of the tender mercies of the Lord will do much to fortify and protect us in the troubled times in which we do now and will yet live. When words cannot provide the solace we need or express the joy we feel, when it is simply futile to attempt to explain that which is unexplainable, when logic and reason cannot yield adequate understanding about the injustices and inequities of life, when mortal experience and evaluation are insufficient to produce a desired outcome, and when it seems that perhaps we are so totally alone, truly we are blessed by the tender mercies of the Lord and made mighty even unto the power of deliverance" - David A Bednar